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discarding) wrote2020-02-03 02:30 pm
discarding) wrote2020-02-03 02:30 pm
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Player Information
Name: jaz
Age: 25+
Contact: @poisonparfait.plurk or PM this journal
Other Characters: Gon Freecss
Character Information
Name: Midousuji Akira
Canon: Yowamushi Pedal
Canon Point: A week or so after the 42nd Summer Inter-high race.
Age: 16
History: boop
Personality:
Midousuji is three things: incredibly intense, incredibly strange, and incredibly cruel.
He’s off-putting to all who meet him, and those bad first impressions are more than understandable. His personality and expressive mannerisms are equal parts strange and severe. His eyes are always unnaturally wide and almost unblinking, and he has a ridiculously imposing posture for his age, coupled with an exaggerated frame. While Midousuji’s appearance is already a lot, the way he carries himself is a lot more—Midousuji doesn’t seem to do almost anything “normally.” When distressed or excited, he’s prone to unprompted shrieking, and doing strange things like scrubbing his hands rapidly over his face or flailing. He also has a tongue that must be at least a disgusting foot long that can’t seem to stay in his mouth, and he’s not afraid to get weird with that too, even having been depicted as dragging it across asphalt. He moves in sudden, abrupt ways that tend to get a lot of gross pops and weird sandwich-bag-full-of-wet-noodles kind of sounds, and his energy is often so intense that he’s sometimes depicted as being three times his actual size just to convey how oppressive his presence can be.
Perhaps surprisingly, Midousuji is self aware, in these regards; he knows he’s strange, and he knows that people find him scary. Despite being bullied (a lot—these are genuine expressions of his person, so they’ve always been there) when he was younger, Midousuji was suddenly left alone once he had what was apparently a pretty extreme growth spurt. But Midousuji, while he does think that all other people are inherently rotten pieces of crap due to that social conditioning at an impressionable age (and why he guiltlessly is so cruel without mercy, making him a rotten piece of crap himself), also has no delusions about himself. He knew that he’s weird, and later learned that he has the capacity to be frightening. And so, Midousuji leaned into that as he continued competitive cycling, seeming to decide to make that his brand. It probably feels good to have people terrified of you after enduring a childhood of bullying and humiliation, after all!
in competitive scenarios—where we get most of our screen-time from Midousuji—he’s not only arrogant, but he derives obvious glee in being antagonistic. In this kind of setting, Midousuji enjoys hurting people, and he’s good at it. The only thing that he enjoys more is winning, and coupled with a mean personality, Midousuji doesn’t care what he has to do to achieve victory. He’ll obey the rules, of course, not wanting to risk disqualification, but he’ll get creative with his vicious tactics to break down the competition, despite being abnormally talented in his field even without all the nasty leverage he likes to angle for himself.
Midousuji finds delight in ruthlessly psychological sadism, and while it’s often to his own advantage and to bolster his upperhand, sometimes it truly is just for the fuck of it, because it seems like he gets genuine amusement out of it. There’s some circumstances where he doesn’t really merit a major benefit from this behavior, but he does it anyway, purely because he just seems to like fucking with people in these controlled, competitive environments. Additionally, and unsurprisingly, Midousuji isn’t above lying to people to cause them psychological distress, nor is he above causing physical harm where possible if it means he’ll get what he wants; he’s is absolutely the type who will go around every law loophole possible to get what he wants.
On top of being cruel to strangers and perceived rivals on the road, Midousuji is markedly unkind to his own teammates. Although he’s not the team captain, he acts as its tactician and tyrant, and he prefers to keep his “subjects” in line with fear, going as far as to want to refer to his own team by numbers instead of names, and to call them all “zaku” (foot soldier Gundam reference... listen, he’s still somehow a kid), intent on making them feel dehumanized. Midousuji has also done things like make examples of his own team and humiliated them for no other reason than to injure their egos—for example, he let someone on his team who had been underperforming make the cut for some big deal big boy race, and the teammate’s parents flew all the way from a different region to cheer him on. Midousuji then said that the kid was an idiot to really think that he’d made that placement (which, of course, the poor kid didn’t) when literally everyone else was so much more talented than he was. When that team member got upset and explained the situation with his family and all that, Midousuji cared so little to hear it that he barely humored the guy with a response. At best, Midousuji is cold to his teammates; he passively rejects every olive branch extended, and the admiration of his peers doesn’t mean much—he expects it, and enjoys it, but that’s about it. If it’s not for the purpose of terrorizing them or giving orders, Midousuji does everything he can to not engage or acknowledge his peers.
And this, of course, is by design. Midousuji carries the belief that the way one can consistently obtain and uphold victory is by discarding everything else and considering it extraneous. Your own body, vapid and distracting concepts like friendship, you name it—if you shed everything else but your objective, then your objective is all you have. Midousuji has no friends, and expressly wants it that way. He eats alone at lunch, and apparently isn’t even all that close with his surviving family (popularly considered his 2 little cousins, aunt and grandfather). However, Midousuji isn’t cruel to his family, or even to his school peers. He’s impossibly distant and disengaged, and is described by the author as being “quiet” off the road. While it’s of course in part because Midousuji doesn’t intend to foster close bonds, it’s also because Midousuji exists in a numb purgatory between races.
The truth is that the death of Midousuji’s mother (and the trauma of being 9 or 10 when he heard and felt her last heartbeat) left an understandably devastating impact on his psyche. Midousuji never had positive connections, growing up, and his mother was the only one that he had; she inspired him to become a professional athlete by her gentle encouragement and praise, and Midousuji constructed his entire purpose and identity around it. When his mother died, Midousuji implied that a good chunk of him went with her, describing the feeling he associates with his mother as “feeling like the color yellow”—and when she died, Midousuji said that the color from then on felt a bit dimmer.
This is all to say a couple of things: Midousuji continues to compete because it would make his mother proud, which is why he also still takes great care of his dental health (mama liked his teeth). Midousuji feels alive and vindicated during races, because he’s in his element and purpose, which is probably why he’s so eruptious in comparison to how he is between races, which seems to be Midousuji’s purgatory. It’s as if Midousuji is on stand-by, deactivated and going through the motions between each race.
The other point is that Midousuji only had his mother, growing up, and she made him feel safe, happy and loved—and that’s what her role was. So without her, Midousuji might consider that not only can no one else take that role, but that he wouldn’t want anyone else to take her place. It seems that the implication is that Midousuji thinks that his mother was maybe the only good person on the gosh damn planet, and so why would he bother letting someone else in like that even if he wanted to? There’s also the possibility that deep down, part of Midousuji fears making connections—whether with school peers, his own surviving family, or his team mates. Not just because he distrusts them, but because he doesn’t feel like he can handle that kind of loss again, so out of self preservation, he just became an entire bastard.
Midousuji, as mentioned, is an amazing strategist and has a great mind of a tactician—in general, he’s got good book smarts, and maintains good grades as he quietly goes through the motions at his school. Unfortunately, aside from biking, he sucks at pretty much everything else, which might be another reason why he leans his entire’s life purpose into being a professional cycling athlete, aside from his trauma. Midousuji's thought for a long time it's better to be the best at one thing, rather than good at many things, but the reality is that he's just stuck.
Ironically, Midousuji's mother's dying words to Midousuji was that he had to keep moving forward, no matter what, no matter what happened. And his stupid ass took it literally and applied it to cycling, rather than what she probably meant, meaning moving on from the grief and not letting it collapse him. He hasn't moved forward at all, though he doesn't realize it.
So, in Aefenglom, who knows which Midousuji will be his most common presentation, or what the hell he’s gonna do without having the option to do competitive city cycling. Which is why I’m giving this a go!
Abilities & Skills: All of Midousuji’s interesting abilities and skills are just related to competitive cycling—he really doesn’t have much else. He’s just an ordinary kid, and outside of his special interest there, he’s actually not very talented in much. I guess you could say he’s a skilled tactician and has a pretty good knack for intimidation and mind games, but again, those don’t really surface unless he’s in that environment.
Inventory/Companions: Not much... Not even his childhood bike. Just his bike uniform, a black sweater over the top, his cycling shoes, a white knit beanie, cycling gloves, and his messenger bag. Within that bag is some electrolyte powder to be mixed with water (x2), an external battery pack + smartphone charger, his cell, deodorant, floss, and a toothbrush. Not because he was going to stay anywhere overnight, but because he’s deplorably fussy about his teeth.
Choice: Witch
Reason: I already play a monster in game, and Midousuji is already so monstrous himself it’s like he got lost on the way to his Junji Ito canon and gave up and decided to stay in a sports shounen. Besides that, Midousuji is actually a good study and is quite smart—but in general, seems quite talentless outside of competitive cycling. So I like the idea of him being very frustrated with being extremely good with the theory and just miserably, dangerously bad in practice.
Sample: right here! little AEF AU
Name: jaz
Age: 25+
Contact: @poisonparfait.plurk or PM this journal
Other Characters: Gon Freecss
Character Information
Name: Midousuji Akira
Canon: Yowamushi Pedal
Canon Point: A week or so after the 42nd Summer Inter-high race.
Age: 16
History: boop
Personality:
Midousuji is three things: incredibly intense, incredibly strange, and incredibly cruel.
He’s off-putting to all who meet him, and those bad first impressions are more than understandable. His personality and expressive mannerisms are equal parts strange and severe. His eyes are always unnaturally wide and almost unblinking, and he has a ridiculously imposing posture for his age, coupled with an exaggerated frame. While Midousuji’s appearance is already a lot, the way he carries himself is a lot more—Midousuji doesn’t seem to do almost anything “normally.” When distressed or excited, he’s prone to unprompted shrieking, and doing strange things like scrubbing his hands rapidly over his face or flailing. He also has a tongue that must be at least a disgusting foot long that can’t seem to stay in his mouth, and he’s not afraid to get weird with that too, even having been depicted as dragging it across asphalt. He moves in sudden, abrupt ways that tend to get a lot of gross pops and weird sandwich-bag-full-of-wet-noodles kind of sounds, and his energy is often so intense that he’s sometimes depicted as being three times his actual size just to convey how oppressive his presence can be.
Perhaps surprisingly, Midousuji is self aware, in these regards; he knows he’s strange, and he knows that people find him scary. Despite being bullied (a lot—these are genuine expressions of his person, so they’ve always been there) when he was younger, Midousuji was suddenly left alone once he had what was apparently a pretty extreme growth spurt. But Midousuji, while he does think that all other people are inherently rotten pieces of crap due to that social conditioning at an impressionable age (and why he guiltlessly is so cruel without mercy, making him a rotten piece of crap himself), also has no delusions about himself. He knew that he’s weird, and later learned that he has the capacity to be frightening. And so, Midousuji leaned into that as he continued competitive cycling, seeming to decide to make that his brand. It probably feels good to have people terrified of you after enduring a childhood of bullying and humiliation, after all!
in competitive scenarios—where we get most of our screen-time from Midousuji—he’s not only arrogant, but he derives obvious glee in being antagonistic. In this kind of setting, Midousuji enjoys hurting people, and he’s good at it. The only thing that he enjoys more is winning, and coupled with a mean personality, Midousuji doesn’t care what he has to do to achieve victory. He’ll obey the rules, of course, not wanting to risk disqualification, but he’ll get creative with his vicious tactics to break down the competition, despite being abnormally talented in his field even without all the nasty leverage he likes to angle for himself.
Midousuji finds delight in ruthlessly psychological sadism, and while it’s often to his own advantage and to bolster his upperhand, sometimes it truly is just for the fuck of it, because it seems like he gets genuine amusement out of it. There’s some circumstances where he doesn’t really merit a major benefit from this behavior, but he does it anyway, purely because he just seems to like fucking with people in these controlled, competitive environments. Additionally, and unsurprisingly, Midousuji isn’t above lying to people to cause them psychological distress, nor is he above causing physical harm where possible if it means he’ll get what he wants; he’s is absolutely the type who will go around every law loophole possible to get what he wants.
On top of being cruel to strangers and perceived rivals on the road, Midousuji is markedly unkind to his own teammates. Although he’s not the team captain, he acts as its tactician and tyrant, and he prefers to keep his “subjects” in line with fear, going as far as to want to refer to his own team by numbers instead of names, and to call them all “zaku” (foot soldier Gundam reference... listen, he’s still somehow a kid), intent on making them feel dehumanized. Midousuji has also done things like make examples of his own team and humiliated them for no other reason than to injure their egos—for example, he let someone on his team who had been underperforming make the cut for some big deal big boy race, and the teammate’s parents flew all the way from a different region to cheer him on. Midousuji then said that the kid was an idiot to really think that he’d made that placement (which, of course, the poor kid didn’t) when literally everyone else was so much more talented than he was. When that team member got upset and explained the situation with his family and all that, Midousuji cared so little to hear it that he barely humored the guy with a response. At best, Midousuji is cold to his teammates; he passively rejects every olive branch extended, and the admiration of his peers doesn’t mean much—he expects it, and enjoys it, but that’s about it. If it’s not for the purpose of terrorizing them or giving orders, Midousuji does everything he can to not engage or acknowledge his peers.
And this, of course, is by design. Midousuji carries the belief that the way one can consistently obtain and uphold victory is by discarding everything else and considering it extraneous. Your own body, vapid and distracting concepts like friendship, you name it—if you shed everything else but your objective, then your objective is all you have. Midousuji has no friends, and expressly wants it that way. He eats alone at lunch, and apparently isn’t even all that close with his surviving family (popularly considered his 2 little cousins, aunt and grandfather). However, Midousuji isn’t cruel to his family, or even to his school peers. He’s impossibly distant and disengaged, and is described by the author as being “quiet” off the road. While it’s of course in part because Midousuji doesn’t intend to foster close bonds, it’s also because Midousuji exists in a numb purgatory between races.
The truth is that the death of Midousuji’s mother (and the trauma of being 9 or 10 when he heard and felt her last heartbeat) left an understandably devastating impact on his psyche. Midousuji never had positive connections, growing up, and his mother was the only one that he had; she inspired him to become a professional athlete by her gentle encouragement and praise, and Midousuji constructed his entire purpose and identity around it. When his mother died, Midousuji implied that a good chunk of him went with her, describing the feeling he associates with his mother as “feeling like the color yellow”—and when she died, Midousuji said that the color from then on felt a bit dimmer.
This is all to say a couple of things: Midousuji continues to compete because it would make his mother proud, which is why he also still takes great care of his dental health (mama liked his teeth). Midousuji feels alive and vindicated during races, because he’s in his element and purpose, which is probably why he’s so eruptious in comparison to how he is between races, which seems to be Midousuji’s purgatory. It’s as if Midousuji is on stand-by, deactivated and going through the motions between each race.
The other point is that Midousuji only had his mother, growing up, and she made him feel safe, happy and loved—and that’s what her role was. So without her, Midousuji might consider that not only can no one else take that role, but that he wouldn’t want anyone else to take her place. It seems that the implication is that Midousuji thinks that his mother was maybe the only good person on the gosh damn planet, and so why would he bother letting someone else in like that even if he wanted to? There’s also the possibility that deep down, part of Midousuji fears making connections—whether with school peers, his own surviving family, or his team mates. Not just because he distrusts them, but because he doesn’t feel like he can handle that kind of loss again, so out of self preservation, he just became an entire bastard.
Midousuji, as mentioned, is an amazing strategist and has a great mind of a tactician—in general, he’s got good book smarts, and maintains good grades as he quietly goes through the motions at his school. Unfortunately, aside from biking, he sucks at pretty much everything else, which might be another reason why he leans his entire’s life purpose into being a professional cycling athlete, aside from his trauma. Midousuji's thought for a long time it's better to be the best at one thing, rather than good at many things, but the reality is that he's just stuck.
Ironically, Midousuji's mother's dying words to Midousuji was that he had to keep moving forward, no matter what, no matter what happened. And his stupid ass took it literally and applied it to cycling, rather than what she probably meant, meaning moving on from the grief and not letting it collapse him. He hasn't moved forward at all, though he doesn't realize it.
So, in Aefenglom, who knows which Midousuji will be his most common presentation, or what the hell he’s gonna do without having the option to do competitive city cycling. Which is why I’m giving this a go!
Abilities & Skills: All of Midousuji’s interesting abilities and skills are just related to competitive cycling—he really doesn’t have much else. He’s just an ordinary kid, and outside of his special interest there, he’s actually not very talented in much. I guess you could say he’s a skilled tactician and has a pretty good knack for intimidation and mind games, but again, those don’t really surface unless he’s in that environment.
Inventory/Companions: Not much... Not even his childhood bike. Just his bike uniform, a black sweater over the top, his cycling shoes, a white knit beanie, cycling gloves, and his messenger bag. Within that bag is some electrolyte powder to be mixed with water (x2), an external battery pack + smartphone charger, his cell, deodorant, floss, and a toothbrush. Not because he was going to stay anywhere overnight, but because he’s deplorably fussy about his teeth.
Choice: Witch
Reason: I already play a monster in game, and Midousuji is already so monstrous himself it’s like he got lost on the way to his Junji Ito canon and gave up and decided to stay in a sports shounen. Besides that, Midousuji is actually a good study and is quite smart—but in general, seems quite talentless outside of competitive cycling. So I like the idea of him being very frustrated with being extremely good with the theory and just miserably, dangerously bad in practice.
Sample: right here! little AEF AU